Goals.

I know its typical of me to do silly things like move on whims, and take a plane to a place that ive never been to before...but this time im taking my time and im thinking things out.


I got to move to san diego a while back to live with friends as a live in nanny. I loved it. I loved the area, i loved the weather, i loved the beach and the sun... i love the whole feeling. I also looked up Paul Mitchell San Diego, toured the school, got accepted, and signed my papers and paid my HUGE fee to enroll and was ready to start classes! unfortunately like always, i gave it up for keith. BIG mistake.


Well, I think this time around im ready to be more responsible and make decisions the right way. Im going to finish my lease here and see how i feel closer to time... but about 4 months out im going to look at apartments, call the school back, re-enroll on "half deposit" day, and when emmalies old enough to start school, im going to be a student.


 Its kind of a scary thought to think that Id be miles away from my family when ive been here for SOOO long (yeah 2 years at once is a long time for me) but to not have them close is whats scary... whats scarier is I dont want to break emmalies heart. I guess it just gives my momma incentive to come visit california! :)


I was thinking about going to school for midwifery, and YES i would still love to, but i know my passion, and its not nursing before hair and makeup. My dream? I want to do runway hair and makeup, gluing jewels to peoples faces, teasing hair so big you'd think it was the 80's .... i want high fashion. Seeing as i went to school in Arkansas for cosmo, i know that i wouldnt get that kind of training nor experience there. When i toured the school in San Diego i realized its a little out of my league, but im ready to step it up.


I have alot of planning to do and alot of thought to put into it, but im ready to do something with my life, and i think this is where Im starting. I have a year to get back on my feet, and a year to make REAL plans, and a year to get prepared and not just move out of spite or to run away from something. I want a real life, and school is where I need to start.


Im sure some of my friends wont agree with this and some will tell me im stupid, but im sure of this, and i feel good about it... as scary as it is. my mom took that leap a while back and she made it work, i know i can too.


So... Call this my short term Goal, Ill make it work - i always do.